Once again, I am grateful for insight, clarity, self-awareness, and this act I've chosen to re-name: "How I Choose to Spend My TIme" (HICtSMT = HICMT = ICMT = I Choose My Time!!!!) which the majority has designated: "Work".
In being kind to myself and giving myself time to adjust, I've given myself the entirety of our first Learning Unit, which encompasses 6 weeks of the new school year, to acclimate. I spent the first 3 weeks happily over-working, excitedly under-sleeping, and feeling acceptance about both, knowing it was the flow within the ebb and flow of a new school year and a new job. Lots of "New", actually! I prioritized my yoga and meditation practice and managed to work out consistently during this period. I also utilized deep relaxation mp3s to soothe my mind and body out of its hyper-thinking mode and into a relaxed state, in the evenings. As week 3 and 4 came, I began to set more time limits to the amount I was working; leaving earlier, taking a day off--trying to bring in more balance. I was able to leave work at a "normal" time and even started walking to work last week, which I love! I'm still trying to find that sweet spot of a restful/satisfying/energetic/inspiring/adequate time balance in Life, where I spend a balanced amount of time devoted to ICMT so that I am effective, inspiring, fully-engaged, compassionate, and prepared; and a balanced amount of time intended toward self-fulfillment in non-public life (passé temps, facere, securite', salud, sa-rang, and hygge). I can do it!
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I also realized that what was taking hours and hours is now taking less time as I ease into a groove of lesson planning and prep, structuring classes, managing too many emails, and organizing my day. Again, being compassionate with myself has been the most help, along with realizing that I can't and don't need to do everything overnight or in one week, or even four. It is still a transition period--at school and in my own life--and that takes time, which is unequivocally permissible! Therefore, I can be stressed about all there is to do, or I can accept that what will get done, will get done, and the rest I cannot control. Relief and freedom! Wu Wei! I can juggle all these actions, I can feel at peace doing it, I can ease my way into a balanced state, and I can be compassionate with myself throughout the process! My Be Like Water Self is balancing out my Yellow Monkey Self!
...is practicing gratitude every day for 365 days. Began on April 22, 2016, let's see how life changes over the course of this next year!