Self- awareness is to cardinal in my position, and contemporaneous with the ongoing changes in my life the past few years and at present. I think I am most grateful for the authentic caring I have for others: that I can step back, look at my actions/words, see how they affect others, and care enough to want to change. I believe I have the exceptional and uncommon character facets of power and will; the power to look within and change, and the will to do so. Perhaps it has taken me a short time in life to realize how my words and tone affect others, perhaps it has taken a decade or two. More importantly, I see it and I want it to change, therefore, I will change those aspects of myself!
I am also grateful for the open-communication I have with my co-workers. It's such a releif--after working in so many dysfunctional environs-to be able to express myself in an honest and authentic manner and have the expression of my thoughts and feelings received and accepted. I love working closely with someone (my co-Mentor), along with the rest of the staff, who expresses their feelings, yet cares about how others feel and combines the two into healthy communication skills. Are we perfect? No! Do we continue to practice and work toward effective, compassionate communication? Yes!
My family history includes repression, control, violence, rejection, unworthiness...oh I could go on. I have unlearned so much and worked on becoming an open-hearted, compassionate, loving, non-violent, self-loving, non-control-freak, openly emotive, authentic, sensitive, accepting, and overall-amazing woman. I still see some elements of controlling behavior, and I am grateful I can see this in myself and deliberately, methodically, work to free myself of this trait. I will replace it with "letting be", acceptance, and additional compassion.
In all of this, I conclude that not only am I grateful for how I get to spend my time (my new appellation for work: spending time how I choose!), but for the person I am, have become, and am becoming. Both are awesome!
...is practicing gratitude every day for 365 days. Began on April 22, 2016, let's see how life changes over the course of this next year!