192 - Being summer

I am grateful for friends and fun, being out of doors, sitting on grass and easing back to view the gibbous moon while "troths" and "yon softs" are tossed out at us from enthusiastic Shakespearean thespians.
I am grateful for inner work that tries me so and makes me scream silently when alone, in frustration at how hard it is to be aware and move forward toward change, feeling chained by the current state of inertia, yet knowing it will pass.
I am grateful that my energy is starting to resume its flow through my body and mind; creative spurts of thought flooded my mind yesterday and I felt enlivened.
I am grateful for the erudite teacher of Tao, who writes below, to remind me, that I AM, if I ALLOW myself to be:

​"SUMMER BEGINS (Li Xia)

It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking only of the external season. What is it to be summer?

What is it to be the glory of long days, ample growth, easy living? What is it to have ripening, nurturing, and comfort? Can we be summer, can we give it to others for their benefit, and can we let our sun be bright and our nights warm? Can we be a warm breeze, sweeping away the dampness, and be the breath of the world?

Summer is always in you. Let this be the day when your presence helps others to begin."

-Deng Ming-Dao

Summer is my time. I am summer. I blossom, I bloom, I metamorph from the dark cocoon of winter. If I can get out of my head and room and into the sunlight and joy, I can become (again) what I am meant to be, and fulfill my destiny of Light. Light that attracts all good things and people to me. I have overcome the dark times, I have triumphed. I have learned and grown through the trials. I have survived, but more, I have succeeded. I have prevailed against the stressors and the occurrences that would bring me low or back into darkness. One by one, I have faced the challenges and succeeded! I have but one last outside stressor, although I still work on the ones caused in my mind and thinking. Those require continual attention, but they bring me to where I need to be, when I accept it, or fight it, I still end in the same place of goodness. I will return. I will renew. I may never be the same, but I will be a better version of myself.

In summer, the sun is brightest and at its highest temperature. The sun's light comes early and chases away night until the late hours. Now is my time to be that sun and burn brightly and steadily, chasing away darkness, spreading heat and Light to others, and maintaining my own rigor and steadfastness so that I do not burn out, but retain consistency.
I am The Summer Sun. I am TaeYang.
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