This past weekend the stress started building... I knew it was happening, and new I was reaching my limit so I took action. Truthfully, I was grateful to feel stress and not anxiety; there is a marked difference in my opinion. Related to my life, stress consists of outside factors, that if left unmanaged, can lead to the physical/emotional/mental result of symptoms characterizing anxiety. Once again, after having so much anxiety (mainly work-related) for so many months and not being able to control the origin nor my reaction, it is quite a relief to recognize that I am starting to feel over-stressed, while holding in awareness that I can control (to a degree) the events causing the stress. More importantly, I am grateful for the awareness that some of my own actions/inactions were increasing the stress-burden!
I have been so busy with visa paper work and research and logistics, that I stopped making time for my morning yoga practice, because I felt I had no time for it. Mealtime has shifted to when I "have time", so I have gone hungry and delayed meals for hours. Exercise became sporadic. Aargh. Even my "downtime" did not feel relaxing because there was the constant shadow of to-do creeping around; whispering, interrupting... Thus, I am grateful for the awareness because it brought me to a stopping point in this flurry of worry about deadlines, air tickets, departures, arrivals, boxes not yet packed, friends not visited, endless to-do lists carried over from day-to-day, starting my new job fresh, shipping fees, shipping how-to's, etc. My worries were another long list LOL! So I stopped the busy-stressful-work flurries: I called friends in Chengdu for support and guidance and I received it; I was reminded that my new school is much more easy and flexible and they want me to start fresh, rested, and positive; I found answers to the shipping and customs questions which had remained unanswered until then, and I took the rest of the day off and went to see an amazing film that helped me formulate an itinerary for travel... but more on that later! (Hint below...!) https://www.louvre.fr/en
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