Identification

I grasp intellectually all the  aspects of who I am, who is witnessing, and of identification with that which is not the True Self.  My challenge is maintaining a conscious grasp on who I Am, and remaining in awareness.  It's too easy to fall back in to habitual modes of thoughts and action.  Stay up a little too late, get up a little too late, miss a practice here or there becomes missing most practice and sinking deeper into unconscious living.  

There are moments of peace and gratitude, but then I move about my day, forgetting; allowing little things to irritate me, getting attached to my view of how reality should be playing out.  I return to identification with so much of human life:  my body, my job, my happiness, my unhappiness.  How can I maintain continuous awareness in such a loud, distracting world?  Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know the answer already damnit!  Prioritize my practice! 

To maintain awareness of That I Am, I must dedicate myself to morning practice, without wavering.  This means going to bed early so that I can get up and not feel rushed.  This means doing Agni Sara before lunch.  This means abhyanga and pranayama before bed so that I sleep soundly.  

But still I feel stuck in continual identification with all the distractions in life.  I want to keep my attention on the fact that I AM Life!  I must remember this and remember that Grace will meet me as I reach; all the benevolent forces of the Universe are with me.