Is it the first time I have felt grateful since my last gratitude post several months back, or have I just forgotten/neglected to write down reasons I feel gratitude since then? Who knows, but I choose not to judge myself. That becomes reason Number 1: I am grateful that I am writing this post without harsh self-criticism for not posting in so long! I am grateful I started the MSBR course because it is making a huge difference in how I feel on a daily basis. I am also grateful I started another form of "self-care therapy" which is really helping. I needed help to stop my mind from its continuous negative looping. The massive weight of fatigue and I-have-no-energy has passed, finally. I just needed one little door to open and shed some light so that I could have a small breakthrough and freedom from the stressful thoughts I have about work ... worries about my contracting ending and getting a new visa ... prepping for my trek ... all the other To-Dos that run through my mind continually and only turn off if I numb out with a movie and food or drink. So I am grateful for this reprieve that I have received since last week.
I am grateful I decided to go on this monumental journey I have planned next month! (next month!!!)! I am grateful I decided to take time off and give myself a much needed restoration break. I am grateful I have the courage and determination to pursue my writing career 10 years ahead of schedule (actually the original date was sometime in the future when I finally have the time). I am grateful I have money saved to be able to take time off. I am grateful there are options for me to work remotely while I pursue this dream and goal. I am grateful I found a place to store my stuff while I travel. I am grateful for a good friend I have here in Chengdu. I am grateful for my plants. I am grateful for the cool trekking gear I've purchased. I'm grateful for all that I've learned while researching my trek. I'm grateful that today -- and now -- I feel better!
... needs radical self-care! Getting a start on 2019 early, with a new self-care plan!