At present, I’ve regained a nominal amount of weight: 2 lbs. An equal share of water, muscle, and fat. I find it intriguing that I can sense the increase in water mass in my body after a heavy meal; the bloating and inflammation after indulgence in a boozy weekend. My mental awareness of the specific reactions that occur in my body after eating has become very acute. I have discovered distinct physical feelings in my body after eating too much or drinking too many coffee cocktails last weekend. Specifically, certain substances I ingest correlate to a unique reaction; whether a normal, healthy response, or the opposite. This phenomenon is not something new to me, but over the past year I have obstinately ignored what I was doing to my body and how what I ate affected me, except for the resultant weight gain. “Coming down” off the boozy weekend to return to LCHF/keto food choices, my body shifted again, releasing both the physical water bloat and internal physical/emotional/mental feelings of excess. Once again, observing my body’s changing processes to food intake has been interesting.
Gratitude comes into play in all of this—even in the fog of boozy coffee and a few days of feeling like utter shit. I am grateful it only took a few days of sliding into the Downward Spiral, rather than months or years as per usual. I kept my grip on the edge and didn’t fall entirely into the Black Hole. I can look back on that few days as a partial experience of the whole process: a learning experience and not a mistake, for it took me further inward toward discovery and freedom. I am back on track and feel relieved that that time is over, and yet immensely grateful that it happened, for I hold a new perspective, which will lead to new habits and neural grooves. A positive change comes forth. From boozy coffee! Ha!