I have experienced such a profound shift in emotional and psychic state, the calm feels near bliss. Changes at school have amplified this tenfold. I look forward to being in the classroom even on a day like today, when I feel rather terrible due to coughing and lack of sleep and tired feet from a long hike in inadequate shoes. I know I can care for my self while still providing a wonderful fun day of experiential-learning for my kiddos.
It's a wonderful feeling.
It's not bliss in the sense of being high or out of balance in the "good" direction; rather, it's a lack of anxiety and a sense of calm. This calm feels nouveau to me and my life after these years of the opposite. It's a gift! I thought I would never turn that corner or find that light and both have finally reappeared! There is no bright flash or magnificent epiphany, but a slow, easeful movement, like the bow drawn slowly across one string of a cello, providing deepness and continuity rather than a shrill, sudden note of change.
I kept hoping and praying and visualizing and hoping for change. I kept expecting a sudden transformation overnight. This is smoother and gentler and I am starting to feel the gratitude for this type of timing come forth within. I know that in the future I shall become even more grateful that this shift occured slowly. Perhaps the changes will become more permanent this way.
I am grateful for school and friends and my kids and my co-peeps. I am grateful that I always have been -- and remain -- open to change and learning and possibilities.
...is practicing gratitude every day for 365 days. Began on April 22, 2016, let's see how life changes over the course of this next year!