Day 179 - NOW

NOW I am grateful for all that is occuring in my life as a result of the past.
NOW I can be grateful what happened in the past to bring me to these moments.
NOW I am loving where I am in work and home.
NOW. Thank you!

One year ago I was interviewing at Integrity Academy for the position I now hold. I am so grateful to be part of this school community that advances the notion of self-actualization through holistic education based on the individual. I love everyone with whom I work; if there's an issue, we practice NVC (Non-Violent Communication) to work it out. I love our kids, I love our families. I feel part of a community of like-minded souls; what a rare gift! I'm grateful to teach at this school because I have learned so much, and this experience has stimulated my own self-awareness and self-actualization; in fact, I feel that being at IA is part of my evolutionary process. I am so grateful to love what I do and enjoy "going into work" every day. I know so many who hate their jobs but feel stuck. I've had that experience over and over again, working in so many dysfunctional work environments.
Being at IA has allowed me to think of how I can be of service to someone else, on a daily basis. I know what I do is important and that I matter -- I'm not just an expendable work bee. I get to validate these little humans and build them up. If I do nothing else, I wish to grow in them their own sense of self-worth, self-possession, and self-love. I want to empower them so that they realize they have everything they need for happiness and success already within them. It's all inside and nothing can stop them.
I try to remain present and focus on NOW, but I can't help but to wonder about the next year. I know for sure I will stay at least one more year. And I feel that I grow more and more attached to this very specific type of education in this very specific school in this very specific location. Part of me is "scared" about that attachment: I don't want to be bound, I don't want to be "stuck", and I don't know if I really like Austin well enough to make a "life" here. What if I love what I do so much that I don't want to leave?? But those meanderings remind me that I need to stay present and grounded in the NOW, because 16 months away will take care of itself! And NOW, I am grateful for where I live, my work, all that is happening in my life!

Becker Vineyards, Fredericksburg, April 2017.