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My top priority is to reduce my stress and anxiety so that I can manage my energy better, decreasing energy dissipation and increasing Qi.
Yesterday I completed most of my plans and goals. I've been watching my calorie intake and trying to reduce it. I had forgotten how wonderful it is to sit quietly and eat unrushed. It's remarkable to taste my food consciously. I also found I don't eat everything on my plate because I get full and stop. Such a marked difference from the shoveling down food while answering emails or reading. I also completed my yoga practice and took a walk. I would love to spend more time outside, but the mosquitoes are so bad, it just becomes sufference instead of enjoyment. I went through a pile of paperwork yesterday, and also got my bike moved into the garage and out of my room. Now, I just have to get the tire replaced and get my a$$ back on my bike. I'm a bit anxious about how my knee will respond, but will try it anyway. Today I have acupuncture and will make a visit to family. All after another session of practice of yoga and Qi Gong, as well as a walk in the sunshine. I will clean the frig and continue re-organizing/re-decorating my room today. Negative Habits I will change
Click on "read More" My top priority is to reduce my stress and anxiety so that I can manage my energy better, decreasing energy dissipation and increasing Qi.
Day 2 - Started the day reading and writing, and continuing my plan for a Rejuvenation Break. As I reminder, I am reposting my Plan and the list of Negative Habits I wish to change. Went for a nice walk and will do some organization tasks today around the house and in my room. I am clearing out the disorganization that has begun and which causes a mental and emotional dissipation of my energy. What I've learned this school year is that it is very, very difficult for me to work in a cluttered environment. It saps my energy and makes me dislike the physical environment in which I am in. Normally, my room is organized and clean, with neat stacks on my desk, and no clutter. Yes, I still make my bed every day -- always have, always will. Yet, I've started allowing piles accumulate on my desk and bureau and in corners: books, paperwork, things-to-do. Getting all my little piles organized and cleared away will stop tapping into my much needed Qi reserves so that I can dedicate my energy to healing and living. I'm going to tackle one room item and one house item each day, starting off with getting my bike out of my room and stored properly, and cleaning the frig. I am also planning out my Tao Qi Gong exercises and learning the routine. I've had my fresh OJ today and plan to eat a big bowl of fruit for dinner. I am also doing nothing while eating, except eating and looking out the window. :-) Click "Read More" I have two weeks off, and I plan to restore healthy habits, pull myself out of the downward spin of negative habits I have acquired this year, and rejuvenate my health, my heart, my joy, and my mind during this break.
Negative Habits I will change
Click "Read More" Just My Acupuncturist said anger is a lot better than some other emotions. I should've asked her, "Such as what?"
Depression? Yes. I suppose anger is more gratifying and propelling than the ennui and numbness of depression. Fear? Well, that is the birthing canal for anger, so they can't be compared. I don't know, but I do know I'm angry as hell, and the more I recollect about the situation, the angrier I become. The good thing for me is that anger IS a propulsive force. Now I just have to determine the right action and move forward with it. For now, I will sit in wait and be silent and watch. But I feel betrayed (angry), fearful (angry), ignored (angry), silenced (angry), invalidated (angry), ostracized (angry), and that my opinion and voice just doesn't fucking matter (very, very, very fucking angry). I also feel nauseous and my heart's beating the fuck out of my chest and my respiration is shallow, short, and elevated. So in the meantime FUCK THIS SHIT! It is some FUCKING BULLSHIT. Just like American fucking democracy my voice doesn't mean shit, |
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