13 more days until Rishikesh!

I am so grateful there are only 13 more days until I will be in the sunshine and holy lands of Rishikesh!  I am so grateful I decided to go on another life changing trip.  I have created daily and weekly intentions in the form of a checklist, to help me move through this phase of inertia: "a body in motion tends to stay in motion; a body at rest stays at rest".
Another book "came" to me at the right time, reminding me that I still need help with past trauma and current stresses; AKA Living in China. The "Cognitive Behavioral Therapy & Mindfulness Toolbox", written by Richard Sears, reminds me that I am doing the best I can, and a lot of what is going on and has happened is not my fault.  This knowledge relieves so much guilt and self-accusation, without removing the responsibility I have to change my life for the better.  Unless you have or have had PTSD, GAD, MD, then you cannot possibly understand what it is like to live with the CrazyTrain of Thoughts that stick in your head and make you think you are crazy.  Even I forget that many of these manifest due to physical or neurological causes that are waaaay beyond my control.  Self-blame leads to self-criticism, etc. etc.  It's such a cycle and I forget the tools I have or can't find them for whatever reason.  So I am really grateful that this book popped up when I was researching another...
I am grateful today that in 4 days the hell that is a Chinese Kindergarten performance will be over.  I am hoping to be strong this week, and try not to over react, and take care of myself.  I can do Mindfulness Meditations during lunch, and I'm getting a massage after school!  I can do this!