Day 14! Bonzo!
I wish I could say I feel fantastic, but I irritated a disc yesterday in yoga, so did not sleep, my back hurts, and not sleeping makes me profoundly evil! ;-)) Of all the (many!) athletic injuries I've had, I have received the MOST from frickin' YOGA! WTF! More than from running. cycling, climbing, hiking, dance, and gymnastics! And they are always the MOST debilitating and lengthy. Damnit!
That aside, I am pretty damn psyched and happy and proud and buoyant that I've reached this goal! Keep in mind, it's taken 5 months of ups-and-downs and 10-lb. losses and 10-lb. regains, 5-lb. losses and 5-lb. regains, eating keto, back on carbs, drinking wine, not drinking wine, fight to the death with HWC, working through lifelong issues with food, working through lifelong issues of deprivation and fear around food and my body, and continuing to work through all of those issues to get where I am today. Plus, a bit of inspiration from @leanne that motivated me to finally JUST DO IT and strive for the goal I've had since March.
I still have to address these issues: relationship with my body, relationship with food, etc. But, I've had time and space to do a lot of inner work during this fast. This is probably the main reason I like EFs because I can't avoid what food helps me avoid. I'm pretty damn sick of avoiding it all anyway--literally, avoiding painful emotions with food makes me SICK!! And FAT!!
Another thing (NSV). It's been glorious to watch the scale nosedive without a parachute the past 11 days! My weight stalled 3 days ago, but that does NOT stop NOR discourage me, because I know (deep down) that my body is still healing and making progress. I can feel it! And as my relationship to food self-corrects (with a lot of damn writing, inner work, and focus!), that's the salient aspect of this process/progress. I got out the damn measuring tape, which I've been putting off, because those numbers make me feel worse than the scale numbers. But what the heck. I also have a fancy-smancy Chinese scale that gives me about 20 different parametes from BMI to subQ fat, fat mass, muscle mass, etc. And while I don't expect the scale to be as accurate as a DEXA or other scientific, in-lab scan, the numbers change and demonstrate a pattern, which is most telling. Yeah, I made a spreadsheet, too! *geek* LOL. I suppose this means I should step away from the scale for a few days and just focus on other aspects of my journey.
If past fasts are any indication-- and especially since I'm doing such a long fast-- I'll be very gently, lovingly, and slowly reintroducing food through the most nourishing and compassionate plan I can create. I took the time last week to sit down and review research on refeeding after long fasts. Along with Megan's and Fung's books, my go-to books are Buhner's and Fredrick's, both of whom devote many pages to breaking the fast, adding the elements of spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical considerations. I've designed a 2-week refeed plan and published to my blog: www.nationalginagraphic.com/2020-fastinggratitude/refeeding-plan-for-21-day-fast .
To conclude, since I'm prone to self-denigrate rather than praise myself, I suppose I should give myself that gift to say that yeah, this is AWESOME and a MAJOR accomplishment and Girl, you did GOOD! On Fleek!
14 days IS a major victory! Keep on Going! And it's my Birthday on Saturday and I am giving myself the best gift ever: health and longevity!! WhooEffingHooooooooo!
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surprised it is 2020! Holy crap when did that happen!