Day 3: Wow! 5 lbs in 2 days! (Gratitude Day #3)

Yeah, yeah, yeah.  Maybe it's all water.  Maybe it's all air.  I don't care!  I need motivation and a kick-butt start to keep me going!  I awoke today to a 5.1 lb. loss and I will take it!  That's 5 lb.s in 2 days and I am thrilled!  I have lacked discipline and will power and energy for so long that this little poof of intensity I have had to set a goal and work toward it, is magical! 
I simply wanted to manifest some change and will power-- enough to pump me up mentally and keep me going! And I did it!  I really want 2020 to be a great year.  The past few have been rough and I've been on a decline physically and emotionally.  Yet there is so much to anticipate this year, and I really want it to be a fabulous year!  I get caught up in fear too much and it sets me off over the cliff into a downward spiral, toward blackness.  I am determined to overcome some of these habits I have acquired that have steadily caused me defeat when I try to change.  There is so much to consider: biochemistry, hormones, genes, age, emotional resilience, and physical state... it can be overwhelming.  But I can do it!
I am determined to stick to this Fast800 diet for at least 2 weeks, and possibly more if I can.  Then I will switch to the 5:2 plan of 5 days of healthy Mediterranean-style eating, and two days of 800 kcal fasting.  I want to lose 10 lbs. by the end of this two-week period --which is totally doable-- and keep exercising throughout that period.  If I can continue, I should be able lose much my by the end of the month, and I will start running again, also!  I'm confident that if I continue the fast days, and eat healthy and in moderation at other times, I will reach my goal by April!  
When I see the results, I feel more "can-do" power, which is an opposite of the downward spiral!  With the gain in confidence, my motivation increases, which heightens my mental and emotional motivation.  With the decreased weight and elimination/reduction of sugar and wine, my physical energy will increase, making it easier and more rewarding to exercise daily!  I used to live like this, so it's a matter of replacing these bad habits I've acquired with the good habits I have had previously!  I can do it!  
The Mediterranean diet is basically how I have eaten for years: healthy carbs, moderate to high protein, and low sugar.  I used to get up and run 5 miles, 3 times each week (or at least 3 miles, 3 times weekly). I used to ride my bike everywhere, do Bikram, and rock climb.  I can overcome the hardships and trauma that have caused the health decline! I've slowly been doing that for a few years, even though I still slide into the pit every now and again. 
Today, I am a little tired and I awakened with a headache, but I can make it through the day on a water fast, and then I'll enjoy an early dinner.  
My mottos are: "I can do it" and "It's only 24 hours"!  Maybe this will help me to move back to being more present in life.
​I can do it!