Will I let the want for money rule me? Do I not have enough? Are my needs not met? The American ethos of Save! Save! Save! is branded on my brain and has filled my heart with fear. I don not want to live in fear and worry over finances. I have had enough of that. I have made my life as small as possible to fit within my means. Small can be confining or liberating.
If I live in the present moment, I'm okay and I have enough. If I think about the future (health care, transportation, savings), I get very anxious. So today I'm going to focus on being grateful for what I have now. Now, I have plenty, I earn enough, I love what I do, the truck runs, I have food and shelter, I'm healthy overall. I can write, read, practice yoga, practice deep breathing. Honestly, it feels like a sham. My head is trying to force my heart to feel differently than it actually does. But I will keep on trying to feel grateful anyway.
...is practicing gratitude every day for 365 days. Began on April 22, 2016, let's see how life changes over the course of this next year!