Will I let the want for money rule me? Do I not have enough? Are my needs not met? The American ethos of Save! Save! Save! is branded on my brain and has filled my heart with fear. I don not want to live in fear and worry over finances. I have had enough of that. I have made my life as small as possible to fit within my means. Small can be confining or liberating.
If I live in the present moment, I'm okay and I have enough. If I think about the future (health care, transportation, savings), I get very anxious. So today I'm going to focus on being grateful for what I have now. Now, I have plenty, I earn enough, I love what I do, the truck runs, I have food and shelter, I'm healthy overall. I can write, read, practice yoga, practice deep breathing. Honestly, it feels like a sham. My head is trying to force my heart to feel differently than it actually does. But I will keep on trying to feel grateful anyway.
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