I've been coming round to the notion of Balance and Non-Struggle. It is the slowest of processes because somewhere along the peregrination that is my life I picked up the habit of fighting to change and struggling against What Is, instead of Going With The Flow and Allowing. Ergo, I am grateful to (finally) be aware of this quality and have the courage to face it and change it. It ain't easy! I look at aspects of my Life or my Self and am dissatisfied instead of accepting. I want to be different in certain ways, then what follows that desire is allowing that one aspect to define who I am (in my own mind), instead of focusing on all my positives (of which there are an innumerable amount!) I fight and struggle against my Self and Exactly Now, to my detriment and sorrow; i.e., creating and magnifying suffering (it multiplies negative thoughts in my mind like a virus) in my Life. Yet, as I see what I am doing, my awareness increases and consequently, my ability to change increases in accord.
And thus, here I am, feeling grateful for the awareness that I want something that differs from Reality, and that is impossible, so I will work on accepting Life and Myself exactly As-Is, Right Now. I'd rather be happy than suffer.
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